God, How Can I Do This ...

God, i'm affraid. Do you know my heart is beating quickly? DO you know that I can't sleep well throug the night ? Every day is feel so hard for me. Mom, don't give me whatever i want. I can't guarantee that i can give you as same as you give for me. I know this structure is not clear, i have kind of false in this essay. Mom, do you know that I'm affraid to disapointing you if I can't complet my plan? Mom, I know that you always and always give the best for me. But, I just wanna cry for this situation. Thank you so much for my friends who give her/his time to help me, to practice my conversation and correct my english sentence. Thank you so much for Madame and Monsieur who have given help for me. I only can hope everything will be good for next week and after that. Amin.